Sunday, September 17, 2006
Fast Forward Futurama
It never ceases to amaze me just how fast the days, weeks, months go....I'm not really all that happy about it either...I seem to always be looking for a few more hours in the day! Ahh well. I'm one of those people whose major pet peeves includes wasting time, so I keep pretty busy on projects, with hopes of one day, actually sitting down and just doing nothing in particular! hahaha. I laugh at myself....
I have been in a major downsizing mode for the entire summer. I moved out of the darling little magic castle I lived in for three years, way out in the sticks, and back to the city....closer to everyone I know, things I do, work (one can only hope), shopping, etc. etc....It's been a really long process, and a very good, healthy one, although at times mind-bending frustration and contant tiredness abounds.... What with leaving a 3 bedroom 2 bath house with the garage about as big as the 2 bedroom 1 bath NO garage house I am living in now......you can maybe see how this has been a long term project, this "downsizing". I have parted with a lot of stuff, and am in the process of parting with even more! So, a busy busy girl I have been.
My summer rocked not only because I managed to sell my house out in the sticks, move back to the city, I also got to have company from FRANCE, Florida and even MORE company on the way! Great times! I can't believe how fast it all passed, though, and now, here I am, trying to wrap up the last of my "settling in" before the autumn, quickly followed by the long, cold winter, sets in......I've been packing away my summer clothes, fretted that I wore my bathing suit only once, started getting out the warm ones, because here, we go from hot to cold over night and very rarely is there a mild in between. It's hot or cold. And I'm not a huge fan of cold. But I live in the NW, where it rains for most of the year, and rain + cold = hell. So, I'm not necessarily the happiest of campers to say good bye to the summer. Not yet. I'm just not ready!
I'm in the midst of all kinds of changes since the move! Big, BIG ones! GOOD ones! I am loving life to a really large degree, and on the path to reinvention and all kinds of things that go along with that. I'm afraid I have to keep a little mum on some things right now though. Maybe later I can spill all the beans!
In the mean time, I keep keepin' on. Always looking for more adventures, happy times, ways to make life happy and somewhat fulfilling!
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Thursday, August 24, 2006
I'm sorry, Did you say SEPTEMBER is only a WEEK away???
I am exhausted.
Actually, I feel beyond exhausted. Tripping over my own feet while 100% sober exhausted.....
It's been a really long, extremely fun summer with friends from FRANCE, FLORIDA, a major move accomplished, a house sold, tons of house projects accomplished....I'm really satisfied.....and really, really exhausted!!! And I'm not finished with it all yet!!! This is not a complaint. It's just the fax, I mean, the facts, man!!! I would never ever complain about good times or progress. I'm just sayin'.....
I have been through the wringer on the job side of things, and am still working on that. I have a job to start tomorrow, very part time. Waiting to hear about another one I interviewed for today, and another one supposed to call me today for an actual interview time tomorrow. wow. Things are going to come together. Finally.
I have a list here in front of me of the things I need to tend to today. Seeing as how I have done most of them already, I might be taking the afternoon off and finding myself on the couch with the Adventuredog and my secret boyfriend Johnny in one of his many movies! hahaha. Tonight I might be going to see the DaVinci Code if I can drag my tired ass out of the house.....We'll see......
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Sunday, August 20, 2006
Making the Most of Summer........
HHHhhhhmmm. Been a very busy month....Visitors from around the world.....House projects galore getting done....I'm feeling rather productive, and rather worn out!!!
Where the hell have I been anyways??? I sort of checked out there for a while.....
Well, the photographers job might be a great thing for someone, but it wasn't for me. It involved carrying SEVERAL 50 pound bags of lighting & camera equipment to schools to set up and then shoot say, 600 kids in a day! One every 30 seconds! And with them buying, say even the cheapest package at $20-$25, do the math! Not much of that money would be going into my pocket....Anyway, too much physical labor and all for what they wanted to pay me. Even if my neck wasn't as screwed up as it already is, lugging that stuff around every day would certainly do it....It wasn't enough to warrant me getting my tired ass up at 4am to be on location at a school somewhere in the ginormous metropolitan area by 6am.....So...onward, the search continues.....
Been spending quite a bit of time in spiritual pursuits and that has been rewarding....Reading, practicing/studying up on the cards...lots of research...It's all very good for me at this time, getting centered and focused on what is really important and the direction I am heading....
It's funny that many of my friends are all in the similar place as me: redefining, reinventing, wanting to change and reform what they do, where they are going, new directions are being sought. I have a friend here visiting me now from Florida whom I have known for 15 years, and we are pondering the future and the directions we could go.....It doesn't help one who is already confused that the job market where one lives is in the toilet. Jobs that SHOULD be paying someone $16-18 an hour paying $10. It's very upsetting for someone who has spent the last year searching everywhere for the job of her dreams.....It makes me think more and more I am going to have to create my own job...
HHHHhhhhmmmmmm.
In any case, I have been having a most fun summer with my friends visiting from afar, bar b ques every week, and getting my new little house all dialed in to my liking.....The boyfriend and I are working hard on projects. So, even though I don't have a job, I'm working all the time...
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Wednesday, August 02, 2006
Working Out the Largely Important Details....
In my quest for productivity yesterday, I got loads done....I also managed to have fun with my company AND get a call on a job offer!!! I knew yesterday was the day I would hear and I did....
So, last week had this fantastic interview with a photographer who owns a really bitchin' studio....I love what they do there....It's a family operation and it's quite well decked out with great photo gear, hand-painted-on-site back drops, the whole 10 yards....Anyway, had a great interview with this man, and well....I kind of knew I would get the job, and happy that I did. I will actually BE GETTING PAID TO RUN AROUND TOWN TAKING PICTURES OF PEOPLE! OH my GOD! HOW PERFECT FOR ME!!
The thing is....that even a new job presents a whole list of things to sort and figure out.....such as.....
The location is 15 miles away from home. This is almost like another country to me. Especially since I have to cross a river to get there. Hhhhhhmmmm. Trying to plan in my mind the absolute easiest, less traveled route I could possibly take everyday to avoid the masses.....HHHhhmmm.
The REAL and most IMPORTANT issue for me is my Adventuredog.....Hhhhhhmm. We have been together pretty much full time since last July!!! A whole YEAR!!! I have been home with him since I got him....Now, he is a veeeeeeeerrrrrrrrryyyyyy well behaved dog. The problem is the amount of hours I would be gone each day, and say, 10 hours is way, far too long for him to be left alone. We have a schedule together, and....well. I'm not sure what I am going to do just yet, and I have until Monday to figure it out.....Two days a week I have covered, where Adventuregod, I mean dog will be with the Daddy Dog....the one who found him on July 1st last year and brought that bundle of joy in to my life. So, it's the other 3 days I'm still unsure of.......HHHHhmmm. Will talk it over today and see what I can come up with.....Possibly a doggy day-care type of situation??? I'm having separation anxiety....BIG TIME!!!!!
The other REAL and very IMPORTANT issue is the pay.....I do need a certain amount of money to live, pay mortgage and dig my way out of credit debt...HHhhhhmmm. I need more than they are paying and so....I'm not sure how to proceed. I think I will just talk to the guy on Monday at the orientation and try to get square on what to expect pay wise, and make sure I will indeed get to move up through the ranks after "proving" myself to him....They do school pix for kids, senior pix, sports teams, families, and SOME weddings. I want to get into Aaaaaaaaallllllllll the aspects of their photo offerings, and so....?????? I mean, HOW LONG have I WISHED to be a PAID, FULL TIME photographer again?? For a long time, ok? But, the artist thing comes up, as in "starving artist" as in, they are never really paid that well!!! So, I guess we will have to see how it goes. I will have to supplement my income I think, but, the point for me is to BE at home as much of the time as possible, not working two, three jobs to survive. I am trying to enjoy life to some degree...Sadly, I never picked a HUGE money making career. Sigh.......But this IS the Reinvention Time, so I guess this opportunity has come to me for a reason.......I'm going to make the best of it and say lots of prayers.....
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Tuesday, August 01, 2006
Floatin' on the Pirate Party Boat..........
It's always pretty obvious when I am pissed off about something, isn't it??? I mean, you'd have to be blind not to notice it. Then again, if you were blind, you probably would not be reading this blog, would you???
Like most crazy Americans I got the idea that I can have my very own opinions about things and say whatever it is on my complicated and very changeable mind...Apparently, I have a right to....I like being able to express myself, even when I'm expressing frustration and am beyond consolation at the time....In any case, I learn from my own feelings and try to spend a certain amount of time figuring out WHY I am so frustrated or angry, then accept things for the way they are, then go beyond all that bullshit.........And I have......It's good, actually.....VEEEERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRYYYY good......
I AM HAVING SUCH A GREAT TIME WITH MY FRIENDS (from FRANCE!!!) who are back and visiting for a few more days!!! I am just....brought to tears sometimes when I realize what TRULY AMAZING FRIENDS I have in my life and how much it's like having a treasure chest....You open it and all this light comes out. It's wonderful....The talks we are able to have....the understanding....it's just.....We have been having SO much fun, gatherings with my local friends, and we are showing A & her daughter K such a really fabulous time! They are loving it....Just trying not to think about the fact that they do have to go home at some point, which is just four days away! NNnnnnnnnnnnooooooooooooooo!
We keep pretty busy checking things out in the city, shopping at thrift and second hand stores (oh my god, I have NO idea how these two girls are going to get all their stuff home! I might have to inquire into those very large shipping things, you know, like when you MOVE to or from another country?!?!?!?!?!? I yi yi!!!), watching bunches of movies...Last night we watched the Pirates of the Caribbean - fighting over WHO is Johnny's GIRLFRIEND! ME! ME! ME!!! hahaha, and today, we will go see the new Pirates movie: Dead Man's Chest - 2nd time for them - 1st time for me! I can't wait!!! Then tomorrow we go on a wild sight-seeing Adventure outside the city!
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Thursday, July 27, 2006
Job Schmob
The longer I look for a job, the more pissed off I become. It's very frustrating and incredibly disheartening that jobs I used to get $15-$16 an hour for are now all paying $9 an hour!!! I am not shitting you..And WHO THE FUCK can LIVE on $9 an hour????? Pay has gone DOWN while the cost of living, taxes, everything goes steadily UP.....AND isn't it JUST TOO BAD FOR ME that instead of taking one of the two VERY well paying jobs I was offered just as my used-to-be friend and I were re-uniting after a couple of big fall-outs and making plans for me to go and take a load of stress off of her by helping to run her shop - I decided to go and work for her which turned out to be the worst decision I could have made. Yes, the one who fired me because I was INSTANT MESSAGING a friend in another country whilest uploading the items for sale on a local internet classifieds page WHILE ALSO pricing and putting out ALL kinds of NEW items in her shop......... So, she cut her nose off to spite her face, and I'm glad to be done with her anyway. Three strikes, you're out. Because REALLY, I was SUCH A HORRIBLE friend to her, and also I am CRAZY, so in the end: GREAT I'M HAPPY not to work for/with someone who is JUST SO MUCH BETTER than me, and just in general treats you like you're a stupid shit on a daily basis. A week after I started there, I was appreantly a bad, bad employee, which she made clear to me everytime she spoke to me, emailed me, etc. I did NOTHING GOOD for her or her shop....NOT ONE DAMN THING. Ahh well. I guess I REALLY deserved it.
SO. In any case, I am in a bad fucking mood today. I am searching high and low. All the goddamned jobs that want to hire me are like, 25 miles from where I live. And I'm not putting up with assholes, kissing any asses, OR driving 25 miles one way to work anymore.
FUCK! All I can say is : NEVER EVER EVER EVER take a job with a friend. Cuz they won't be your friend for long.....
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Wednesday, July 26, 2006
I love Jack I love Jack I love Jack I love Jack!
I did it! I managed to get my hands on two tickets to the sold out Raconteurs show!!! I was in the midst of my move when they went on sale and I didn't get in there fast enough. Plus I was pissed at the price of the ticket, with the $6.75 surcharge, the tickets end up being about $40. I was not happy about that. In any case, I just could not let them come to town and not see Jack and his new band of rockers!! I love being a part of and seeing for myself little pieces of history in the making....especially since I have not yet managed to harness time travel. But I am working on it.
The show was fantastic!!! Here is a live snippet for you from a London appearance they did recently. Other video snippets can be seen at that site as well. While these little snippets are great, there is nothing like being there, right there, feeling that deep bass beating right through your heart.....Oh man. My ears are still ringing too! The crowd were very obviously gloriously happy about the show, they fucking ROCKED. It was awesome!
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